-7

Well the cleanse is over, I only lost 7 lbs. this time but hey I lost 7 lbs. That's better then nothing. I feel good about it.

I just got home from the Lake!! I had such a good time. This time I didn't come home sick and barley able to move from a really bad sunburn, I'm pretty sure that's a Inks Lake first for me.

I walked in the back door all happy, then I looked on the table and there was Kim's thank you card. I great big reminder that she isn't going to be there all next week. I became very sad and sick right then in there. I'm so not looking forward to next week, it's going to suck for so many reason. It's going to be one of the longest weeks of my life. :(

One More Day

Well really one more day and a half. I'm almost done!! One thing I've learned, the more water I drink the less swollen my hands are (really I learned that last time...I just forgot). Hopefully this will get me back on track, I've been in a slump lately. I'm scared but also looking forward to Saturday morning with I get on the scale, the thought of going through this for nothing is not fun. The scale and I have started a love hate relationship, some days I love it and others I hate it. I'm sure it hates me everyday. :)

I'm so excited, I'm going to Inks on Saturday!! I love being up there, it's so peaceful and pretty plus I get to spend time with family. What I love even more then that is, I feel Miranda up there. I have so many great memories with her there, I love to just drive around and think about her.

So I'm doing to "Cleanse" again. I started it Saturday, that way would be finished in time to go to Inks. I'm on day 4 and only have 3 more to go! I'm glad too because I'm craving everything I can't have. The funny thing is I'm craving stuff that I would really give a second thought to on a normal day. I'm trying to not have any expectations this time so that way I wont be disappointed with myself come the big weigh-in Saturday morning. I'm on my own, it didn't work out with Wade and Janell's schedule this time. I think I like being on it at the same time they are.

Wack!!

I've hit a wall. I haven't lost any more weight, but I haven't gained either. It's totally my fault, the last week I haven't felt like to anything remotely close to working out. I know I need to get back on it and I know I would feel better after a few days. If I'm not at work I want to be asleep, sleep is good. Anyway maybe I'll feel like hitting the treadmill tomorrow.... I'll let you know.

Getting Back In The Grove

Well I'm trying to get back on track. I did the aerobics thing last night, Allison was there!! It was only her second time to get to get to go, she as a crazy schedule. Tonight I'm going to hit the treadmill, I don't know if it's going to be before I go to Allison's or after. My goal (right now) is to do it before I go because I'll be sleepy with I get home. I'm trying to get back on the water kick, I can tell a difference when I haven't been drinking a lot of it. My jeans are felling a little snugger then they have been but I'm thinking it's because I put them in the dryer last night. They have been fitting a little on the baggy side. I have a few jeans that are a size smaller, I got them when they were on sale one day, but I'm not sure how they look. I think I'm more in between sizes right now and it's frustrating. On one hand my jeans are loose and I have baggy butt and on the other hand I have jeans that are a little on the snug side. Hopefully I can take care of that problem this week.

I Just Want to Cry

I'm having a really frustrating day!! Yesterday I got a bill from some pathology office for $755.00 (it's from the little cancer spot that I had removed from my nose), last Thursday I got a bill from St. Johns hospital for $446.84. That's not including what I already paid to the surgeon ($675.00). I just want to through-up! The really sad thing is, I have insurance but it's a $2000.00 deductible. I will never have one that high again. I've been working so hard to save money and now all I see is it flushing down the toilet. As if that's not enough, I haven't been able to work out (not counting Wednesday) because I've been sick. Today all I did was stay in bed and sleep. I decided to take the medicine over the weekend that way maybe the crud will get out of my lungs but I don't have to function. I've done nothing but cough at work. Wade sprayed me down with Lysol. When I asked him if he was trying to kill me he said no, he was just trying to kill 99.9% of my germs. Funny guy.

Time To Get Back On Track

Well I'm back. The last two weeks have been a bit on the busy side. Now I think I'm going to be able to get back on track. I haven't been bad but I haven't been all that good. I've been watching what I eat but I haven't been doing good on the workout part. I missed two nights of aerobics because I've been sick. I was able to go last night, I don't know if my body got a good workout but my mouth sure did. Angela and I talked the whole time. I did finely get on the scale, I know it sounds crazy but I've been so scared to get on it. I wasn't disappointed, it didn't show that I had lost anything but the good news is I hadn't gained anything. So I didn't really feel like a failure. Now I'm going to get back with the program. I realized today that I felt better over the last couple of weeks. I wasn't as sleepy and run down. It's kind of funny, you have to feel bad before you realize that you were feeling good. Well, it makes since to me anyway.

I'll blog more later. I'm at work and the sad thing is even if you are "at lunch", but you stay at your desk, you aren't really at lunch. It really pisses me off sometimes.