Getting Back In The Grove

Well I'm trying to get back on track. I did the aerobics thing last night, Allison was there!! It was only her second time to get to get to go, she as a crazy schedule. Tonight I'm going to hit the treadmill, I don't know if it's going to be before I go to Allison's or after. My goal (right now) is to do it before I go because I'll be sleepy with I get home. I'm trying to get back on the water kick, I can tell a difference when I haven't been drinking a lot of it. My jeans are felling a little snugger then they have been but I'm thinking it's because I put them in the dryer last night. They have been fitting a little on the baggy side. I have a few jeans that are a size smaller, I got them when they were on sale one day, but I'm not sure how they look. I think I'm more in between sizes right now and it's frustrating. On one hand my jeans are loose and I have baggy butt and on the other hand I have jeans that are a little on the snug side. Hopefully I can take care of that problem this week.

I Just Want to Cry

I'm having a really frustrating day!! Yesterday I got a bill from some pathology office for $755.00 (it's from the little cancer spot that I had removed from my nose), last Thursday I got a bill from St. Johns hospital for $446.84. That's not including what I already paid to the surgeon ($675.00). I just want to through-up! The really sad thing is, I have insurance but it's a $2000.00 deductible. I will never have one that high again. I've been working so hard to save money and now all I see is it flushing down the toilet. As if that's not enough, I haven't been able to work out (not counting Wednesday) because I've been sick. Today all I did was stay in bed and sleep. I decided to take the medicine over the weekend that way maybe the crud will get out of my lungs but I don't have to function. I've done nothing but cough at work. Wade sprayed me down with Lysol. When I asked him if he was trying to kill me he said no, he was just trying to kill 99.9% of my germs. Funny guy.

Time To Get Back On Track

Well I'm back. The last two weeks have been a bit on the busy side. Now I think I'm going to be able to get back on track. I haven't been bad but I haven't been all that good. I've been watching what I eat but I haven't been doing good on the workout part. I missed two nights of aerobics because I've been sick. I was able to go last night, I don't know if my body got a good workout but my mouth sure did. Angela and I talked the whole time. I did finely get on the scale, I know it sounds crazy but I've been so scared to get on it. I wasn't disappointed, it didn't show that I had lost anything but the good news is I hadn't gained anything. So I didn't really feel like a failure. Now I'm going to get back with the program. I realized today that I felt better over the last couple of weeks. I wasn't as sleepy and run down. It's kind of funny, you have to feel bad before you realize that you were feeling good. Well, it makes since to me anyway.

I'll blog more later. I'm at work and the sad thing is even if you are "at lunch", but you stay at your desk, you aren't really at lunch. It really pisses me off sometimes.

Done Cleansing

Well the "cleanse" is over. I'm a little disappointed with the out come, only lost 9 lbs and a few inches over all. Don't get me wrong, 9 is better then 5 or nothing at all, I just had higher expectations of myself. At lease I know that I didn't cheat or do anything wrong, I followed it exactly and stuck with it through the full 7 days. I'm sure (hopefully) tomorrow I'll feel better about this, right now I'm really down.

Now it's back to the calorie counting and doing things on my own. I feel pretty confident that I will be able to keep it up, I'm off to a good start.

Last Day!

Well today is the last day. I'm so dreading getting on that scale and picking up the measuring tape in the morning. One good thing out of it is Wade owes me an individual cookie cake. He caved, what a man. So I guess you could say I my have lost the battle but I won the war, or viceversa (spelling ?), not sure how that's supposed to go.

Today was a good day. I went over to Angela's and got to play with the babies, her family was all over so that was fun to see all of them. Later I'm going to Walmart with Mandi. No telling what I'm going to come home with.

One More Day To Go!

Well I just have to get through one more day. Today wasn't bad at all I was at a Concealed Hand Gun class for 12-1/2 hours. I took my stuff with me and everything went just fine. I was really proud of myself because in the morning they had breakfast food out then at lunch they had Subway sandwiches and cookies. I held strong, wasn't tempted at all. Tonight was the first time I felt a little different. I putt on a shirt that has always been a little on the snug side on my arm, it fit a little less snug. I have to keep telling my self that a little improvement is a good thing. I made a bet with Wade that he will cave before I do, I got a call from him when I was at the gun range, I just knew he gave in. I couldn't wait to get through so I could check my voicemail.....I was wrong. Oh well, there's always tomorrow.

God Likes Men Better

I find it so very frustrating that men lose weight faster then women. I mean come one 15 lbs in 4 days? UGH!! I'm still determined to hang in there and see it to the end. Tonight was another night of Chicken and Green beans. Tomorrow night is the last night with food then it's back to the nasty stuff.

Tonight was good. I worked out in the garage for a couple of hours and then when you the gun range with Mom and Tim. I'm glad tomorrow night is Friday, I'm going to help Angela with the babies, that's always fun for me.

Chicken!!!

Plain Chicken. The time has come to eat real food at dinner, for the next three days. I noticed that I was full really quick. By the time I got home from Angela's (after aerobics) and picking up Brittany then I had to shower and cook it, it was about 9:00 when I ate. I'm sure that's not a good time to eat at all but that's the best I could do. I'm not feeling anything different in my jeans. Wade said not to go off that because knows he's lost (he and Janell already got on the scale) and he doesn't feel any different in the jeans either. I'm sure he and Janell are going to do great on this thing. Janell deals with their two boys all days and Wade is outside walking around in the heat at work. Me, I'm sitting on my ass for 8 hours a day.

Tonight was Allison's first night at Aerobics, I think she had a fun. The teacher was saying what all she does other then the Aerobics, when she said she was a Massage Therapist Angela heard Sex Therapist. One good thing about that class, if out bodies don't get a good work out our stomachs sure will from all the laughing.

This Sucks

I don't feel any different. I'm doing everything like I'm supposed to do and drinking all the water plus a little more. I've been working out, last night I worked in the garage and hit the treadmill after. This morning I felt the same when I was getting dressed, I would think if this thing was working I would at least feel a little difference when I was getting dressed.

I'M SO FRUSTRATED!

Bring On The Gagging!

Well today was the first day, the worst part about it is the “cleanse” stuff we have to drink if you want to call it drinking. The stuff is nasty. You have to drink it first thing in the morning, lunch, dinner and then one last time in the evening. The good thing is you only have to drink it on days 1, 2 & 6, 7. You also have this protein powder that you add to 8oz of water. In the morning and lunch you just add one scoop, well unless you don’t ready the instructions right and do two scoops in the morning (like I did), then for dinner you do two scoops. I wasn’t hungry at all (in fact I had to make myself eat the vegetable snacks), then I talked to Wade and Janell and that went out the window. Wade felt in necessary to call and let me know what all he is craving that I wanted all kinds of stuff. He and Janell were cracking me up! The hunger/cravings didn’t last long, I did my evening cleanse drink about 8:45. Trust me when I say it took care of it.

Today was such a good day! Lots a laughter at work and then Angela and I had sooo much fun at aerobics

So, day one down!

Here I Go!

I'm still on the fence about doing this blog, I'm sure there are some people that are going to think this is stupid. Anyway, I'm doing this because I think it will hold me more accountable. It's so much easier to lie to yourself then it is to lie to others.

Tomorrow I'm going to start this cleanse, it's point is to get all the bad Toxins out of your body. I figure it's a good way to get started. Hopefully it will get my metabolism going again. I've totally messed it up through out the years of dieting. It's a seven day program, I did the math on the amount of water you have to drink everyday, 120 oz. That's so much water! I'm not going to be going through this alone, Wade and Janell are going to be going through this "journey" with me. That will make life easier at work, it will just be the evenings that will be hard. I'm already thinking of things that I can do to keep me busy.

This bright idea was all Wade's. For those of you that don't know him, he is one of my bosses (and very good friend) at work. He and Janell (his wife) are two amazing people. If you are one of the people that are lucky enough to call them friend then you are truly blessed. Anyway, Wade's doctor recommended this cleanse to him because he has been working chemicals half his life and plus he wants to drop a few pounds. He told me about it and now here we go. The three of us are going to start tomorrow (Monday).

After this cleanse I'll go back to eating low calorie meals. Erin has been great with helping me work all that out. I'm going to try and post my progress at least three or four days a week. I would like to say I'm going to do it everyday but I'm sure that would only last about a week if even that long.

So, here it goes.....